give me my flowers while I am still here

I’ll face my God and question why
This awful lie She always told
That sun will shine and day will come
To lift myself out of the cold

She meant for me to be in pain
She wanted to drive me insane
She intended me to try in vain
She led me to become Her bane

For what? To bend me to Her will?
For what? To break me ‘fore the dawn?
A virtue will defiance make?
I’d soon destruct than be Her pawn

So I will pull and rip my hair
I will shred my skin and bleed
I will crack my bones in two
So I may feel the warmth it brings

I’m not afraid to go alone
I’m not afraid to see Hell twice
I’m not afraid to burn myself
And I am not afraid to die.

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queen to bishop six 01:50

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I’ll face my God and question why
This awful lie She always told
That sun will shine and day will come
To lift myself out of the cold

She meant for me to be in pain
She wanted to drive me insane
She intended me to try in vain
She led me to become Her bane

For what? To bend me to Her will?
For what? To break me ‘fore the dawn?
A virtue will defiance make?
I’d soon destruct than be Her pawn

So I will pull and rip my hair
I will shred my skin and bleed
I will crack my bones in two
So I may feel the warmth it brings

I’m not afraid to go alone
I’m not afraid to see Hell twice
I’m not afraid to burn myself
And I am not afraid to die.

2.

demon core 04:23



The words you say
Radiate so softly
To penetrate
Into my body
But it’s your grave mistake
Because inside me
Lay the power of decay

My cursed mind
And its destructive wrath
Exacerbate the signs
To make critical mass
Now it melts like ice
And hits you like a gas
This chain reaction

I seep inside
Into your marrow
Are you afraid to die?
For you’ve no place to go
Now the time is nigh
Do you feel hollow?
Meet the demon core

My lovely, little precious thing
The two of us were never meant to be

My lovely, little precious thing
The two of us were never meant to be

My lovely, little precious thing
The two of us were never meant to be

My lovely, little precious thing
Oh, you and I were never meant to be

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1.

queen to bishop six 01:50

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I’ll face my God and question why
This awful lie She always told
That sun will shine and day will come
To lift myself out of the cold

She meant for me to be in pain
She wanted to drive me insane
She intended me to try in vain
She led me to become Her bane

For what? To bend me to Her will?
For what? To break me ‘fore the dawn?
A virtue will defiance make?
I’d soon destruct than be Her pawn

So I will pull and rip my hair
I will shred my skin and bleed
I will crack my bones in two
So I may feel the warmth it brings

I’m not afraid to go alone
I’m not afraid to see Hell twice
I’m not afraid to burn myself
And I am not afraid to die.

2.

demon core 04:23



The words you say
Radiate so softly
To penetrate
Into my body
But it’s your grave mistake
Because inside me
Lay the power of decay

My cursed mind
And its destructive wrath
Exacerbate the signs
To make critical mass
Now it melts like ice
And hits you like a gas
This chain reaction

I seep inside
Into your marrow
Are you afraid to die?
For you’ve no place to go
Now the time is nigh
Do you feel hollow?
Meet the demon core

My lovely, little precious thing
The two of us were never meant to be

My lovely, little precious thing
The two of us were never meant to be

My lovely, little precious thing
The two of us were never meant to be

My lovely, little precious thing
Oh, you and I were never meant to be

3.

Persephone 03:35



Persephone is dead
And I have taken up her stead
Once on earth, fell into Hell
Like coins into a wishing well
A curse from Hades, punish me
And send me into agony
An ending will this tale unfurl?
Return me from the underworld, Persephone

I have seen things you would not believe
Could have happened to me
For I have tasted the seeds
Containing darkness and longevity
The price I pay for immortality
A lonely life I never asked to lead
Now I cry my desperate plea:
Oh, why! Why did you forever abandon me, Persephone?

An outsider no matter where
For I am neither here nor there
I watch the living pass me by
And fail to find the reasons why
For your soul I search the river Styx
I regret you I could not fix
A way out I just cannot see
Save for giving in like you, to cease to be, Persephone

A tone—it rings just like a bell
And suddenly has ceased the spell
Back on earth, I see the good
And breathe the air just like I should
But it’s tainted by impending doom
My promise, return to gloom
I’ll always be caught between
Ever since I failed to save you, Persephone

This track samples dialogue from the 1982 film Blade Runner.

This track samples drum audio from the Nine Inch Nails track "Head Like A Hole" (1989).

Si tendré que aguantarlo, por siempre, pa’ siempre
Sin decirlo, sin expresar, sin tener voz para hablarlo
Los dolores van a seguir por destruyéndome; pues ya tienen
Todo el poder y mi aguante ya ha huido

El problema es que toda mi vida no he entendido
La razón por la que me dejan asustada y a solas
Pues la soledad me hace convertir en una loca
Y sabiendo esto me vuelven una maldita bruja

¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no sabe nadar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no puede respirar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, a la que le dejaron a ahogarse
Princesa mimada, no grites, “¡socorro!”
¡Aguántate, ‘te, ‘te!

La ira que yo guardo dentro mi gris corazón acecha
Pues por años ha crecido y ya se impaciente
Y la luz de la erupción os va a dejar en asombro
Pues con aguante la he escondido y con aguante os he aplacado

¿Te sorprende que lo más insidioso de la locura
Es que a veces ilumina y a veces engendra la futura?
Pues las voces dentro de mi dicen que no os importo nada
Y la cosa es que este miedo vive en la evidencia

¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no sabe nadar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no puede respirar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, a la que le dejaron a ahogarse
Princesa mimada, no grites, “¡socorro!”
¡Aguántate, ‘te, ‘te!

¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no sabe nadar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no puede respirar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, a la que le dejaron a ahogarse
Princesa mimada, no grites, “¡socorro!”
¡Aguántate, ‘te, ‘te!

Cuándo me miras a mi, ¿cuál es que ves en mi interior?
¿Una chica incomprendida o un inminente cataclismo?
Por que te espero a ti, y ya que te quedas allí
Y ya lo único que aguantaréis es que me calle por fin

¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no sabe nadar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no puede respirar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, a la que le dejaron a ahogarse
Princesa mimada, no grites, “¡socorro!”
¡Aguántate, ‘te, ‘te!

¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no sabe nadar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, la que no puede respirar
¡Aguántate!
Tú, a la que le dejaron a ahogarse
Princesa mimada, no grites, “¡socorro!”
¡Aguántate, ‘te, ‘te!

I think that they must all have laughed
When they cut my brain in half
Knife in hands, my mouth aghast
For years and years, as they passed

But something’s wrong, something’s broke
I’ve come to smell the stench of mold
And feel an ache in every bone
Now I seek to be alone

So why not fix me up a bowl of pot
To try and make all Feeling stop
One day they will suspect a clot
To find there’s been a bit of rot

The maggots in my head, they know
Because they made the putrid growth
The insanity they drove their host
To tie her noose up to a post

But damned flies! They come in waves
Out of the eye where Reason lay
And at this level of decay
I think Reason’s mostly gone away.

I tied this lasso to pull you inside
But your heart doesn’t want mine
Not because you don’t want me
The love you give will never set me free

I’ll love you 'til I die
I’ll love you 'til I die
I’ll love you 'til I die
I fear you’ll be the reason why

I tie my cowboy noose
I never meant to hurt you
I tie my cowboy noose
I’d almost rather that I lose you

I showed you my everything
Even the black void inside
And you didn’t turn away
You pulled closer into my sigh

I’ll love you 'til I die
I’ll love you 'til I die
I’ll love you 'til I die
I fear you’ll be the reason why

I tie my cowboy noose
I never meant to hurt you
I tie my cowboy noose
I’d almost rather that I lose you

I tie my cowboy noose
As you tell me don’t you cry
I tie my cowboy noose
I smile while I’m dead inside

And I know you’d be the one
To tell me to come off that ledge
But I'd rather you hated me
And tell me I’m better off dead

Untie my cowboy noose
Untie my cowboy noose
Untie my cowboy noose
Untie my cowboy noose
Untie my cowboy noose
Untie my cowboy noose
Untie my cowboy noose
I will always love you

Yee haw!

Three
Two
One

I looked at you and then I fell
From seven stories high
My eyes rolled back as something snapped
At last I’d learn to fly

Then heat spilled ‘cross a crimson screen
And flowed down, down to my lips
My tongue tasted the salt of sea
The ocean mixed with spit

While gravity had made its plunge
I hurled from watchful arms
Rejoiced, raced down by those who passed
Three seconds ‘til I drowned (at last!)

And then my bones made one with earth
And cracked into the ground
A gasp, a grin, my skull caved in
And then you heard the sound

At once my screams ripped through the air
Just whispers reached the sky
But from the clouds poured down below
The remnants of my cries

Then galaxies formed in my head
The black striped bright with white
A thousand stars born in my eyes
Void filled with lantern lights